May 27, 2011
Open Letter to my Old Lady
How do you deal with that special woman in your life that thinks your playing head games with her? Now, if this isn’t going to be something to write on compared to what I normally write on!
First here I will give some back ground on this special lady of my life and it is and always has been real true love as well. How far back does this go? All the way back to the age of 16 years old believe it or not. I am now 65 and she’s close to my same age with a few years added to her. After all you know how women are when it comes to age. There always going to be 29 or 39 no matter how old that they really are. That is one thing I could never understand on any woman, there always choosing one of those numbers even if there many years older. How many of you women will disagree on this or even agree on this? As always send all those remarks no matter how nasty or nice they are to (lewis1946@cox.net) after all I am man enough to take the heat from anyone no matter what. I am great at pissing anyone off, that is one tack I am sure of. As I was taught very well back in my days of getting answers to questions. Anyone can say there’s two ways to get the answer as well as the truth from anyone no matter who they are by being nice or being mean. So, I was trained very well on how to be both and used as such as well also. When I was so called debriefed from my bad and good days, that is one thing that I was going to keep in my head and have used it for everyone in my life and still do so as this day. Anyone that follows my daily activities besides the so called agents of law abiding enforcers of which ever agency that their employed with can tell you. Trouble is those people for some reason make a big mistake and end up risking the reversal to happen to them. I again refer back to my rattling or out cries on many just in the seven years while in this state. California was my training ground and I had hopes to leave all that behind, and here those with that greater power than most citizens have ever dreamed of, they tried to play that silly game of let’s get em now. Just like those in California tried over the years for many years and as they will tell you I almost slipped off that fine white line and there is no net in which I could fall either. But, with the help of those with so much power so they feel as many have read I have started to do them a favor ion California and start attcking from two thousand miles away by means of the computer. It’s like as if I already don’t have enough bee’s stinging me now, and I love the pain so I rattled the nest again with even more of those dishonest enforcers. Only a few people have asked why am I attacking and showing stories in other states. I say I am sixty-five and people need to learn to be honest and find that they can win if only they fight. After all why would you want to let all these bad people abuse you and even hold you in their cages and not at lease fight. Sure if you win there going to go after you even more and more. Well those that are coming after you will be the bad one’s and you will expose more of them and able to get rid of them as well. But, yes it takes a lot of sleepless evenings that is well worth it! My old lady as I like to call her has seen this as well as my families and there not happy about it. One day their just going to bomb the house or the van you drive or some coward will want their name in public display for shutting you up. As if that has not happened so many times in the past years. That is why so many newspapers call all the United States people a herd of sheep. There’s only a handful as the media with those in power call Lone Wolves. But, every Lone Wolf gets caught as I am told. I can say only those too old and don’t do their planning and research first. Besides it is showing the sheep that were really a pack but have had to stop running in packs with our women and children like we use to do. The agents have forced us into the position to become Lone Wolves in order to protect our ladies and children. Is it lonely? Sometimes and yes it hurts when one of the pack that use to run together so many years ago has been taken down by force or by self of mistakes. We grieve as well as anyone else does. We don’t have metals bestowed upon us when one of ours dies, we don’t have a gathering any longer as we done away with that years ago to fight and save our families and children. Were in all places as any of the agents the legal or so called legal system. Yes, were even judges, as well as one of the agents of those that protect and serve. After all we have to have the same means as the enemies do to fight with. But, you fight even harder when you’re a Lone Wolf because the bad of this country has destroyed our way of life, so were also setting out to destroy their lives and once we do that with the means that they also use, then it wakes people up, and we get even more lone wolves to join in our fight to same America. If all you sheep just sit back and think of all the wrongs those that serve and protect has done and are found innocent when you sheep know that it’s wrong then you fight even more. Just here in the years I have lived in this state I have seen a many drunk sheriff’s, police and even judges and they get away with it. The worst is the murders of innocent citizens by these protect and serve and they are free with a bunch of words and continue on with their corrupt lives! Once you see that then you see more Lone Wolves joining in the fight. So, do some of those sheep when they thought that they would say everything and be left alone. Once they are a victim then they themselves go out and learn or bring back what they were taught from those so called fighting for America wars, when we were just stealing all that we need to keep the power. But, with so many more people becoming safe and given so called government assistance by means of SSI, Food stamps, welfare, they become lazy sheep and are under control of those that care for them. Problem is that all the wolves still in packs as well as those Lone Wolves know it’s our money su7pporting this free grazing of the sweet nectar of life and were tired of it. Have you noticed that when we stop paying as much as we should to the almighty King that the King must make drastic cuts and short you sheep? Well, those cuts are coming more and more and soon will befall all of you non-working sheep. Once this happens I foresee even more Wolves joining out of spite of not getting what their so use to. My older lady and believe it or not I use to say my young lady back so many moon’s ago. After so long away and being the Lone Wolf that has opened again now in progress of waiting orders to relocate again to another state. When I never know but it will be one day and where I end up I never even know until I am there. How many of my family will follow this time? All of them as they like it and they learn a lot. Even if my grand kid’s are becoming men and women they like to call me names that are not so nice at times. But, do so because this is the first state that they have awoken to as well as see that people are people no matter what power they may have gained. They all live as well as die one day. My lady friend had a friend of over twenty some years that died and she was distressed so much over it that she felt I was not there for her as I always was in the past over other deaths. Then she thought about it and sent an apology as she knows I have lost even family members as well as close friends over my life spam. But, when you lose someone close to you it hurts for a while, and then you have to learn that one day it will be your turn. Life is never certain and you never know when it is your time. Then I am very cold towards death as I have seen so much of it in my life that it is too common and when it happens I may say a secret little pray to myself over them, but that is as far as it goes. When you work in the medical field for over twenty years you do get cold towards death. Now, when it’s a youngster that still does affect me because they never started life and even if I don’t know them I think why and how and so on. Yes, maybe not even family but it still affects me when I see it on the news. I lost a kid after my parents then a son. My very first lost was a friend when I was even thinking of going into the military and from there people I knew daily from life started to pass on by means of others or because of themselves. In short old lady of mine yes, I know death and how you must feel. But have become cold towards death and hope that it one day will stop. Now, that is like wishing peace on earth, and that has never been a fact in over thousands of years. Best decide to accept it as it will always be as the world will always be at war some place no matter what. I even asked to marry and was given a NO at the time because I could not handle it and the pressures. Pressures? How many times did I bail the kids out of things and have to be secretly with it as I knew how you would feel. Deals were made in that corrupt area as you now understand and just like most citizens never knew it until you yourself were crashed into because of someone else. Just knowing people will cause that and I felt bad of course, but then if you had to be barred up, what do you think would have happened then? I hate to think of that myself as jails now days are being attacked across the country when they push to hard and they have learned not to push to hard because they know it’s not worth the lives. After the attacks on compounds as some like to call them when they were nothing but homes and families. But, makes for, sensational news paper reading for the sheep in the county. Now were doing it in other countries. What does the future hold? Well, I have a strange feeling that we are being given more and more warnings and the sheep still not listening so there will be continued disruptions of all the sheep lives across the United States as well as the world. Hopefully everyone will awaken to mother natures warning but if it doesn’t happen then the worst and final action will one day take place even in yours and mine life. I suspect that we will not be able to pass away as natural causes because I have that feeling were going to see what is going to be the future for any that remain alive after this final lesson that will be given by the Almighty One. Sorry you felt that I was going to ask for your hand in marriage when I or we took a cab of all means of transportation to Reno. That cab driver by the way passed on around ten years ago. I don’t think I ever told you of that as I am still as you say that quiet person and hold everything inside. I have no choice at times and get so much build up inside I have to release. My release is a lot different than most and something that again was taught. Something like a tooth ack that any dentist will tell you will never go away until it is cared for. As I said people have no idea how powerful that brain is in your head. I have taught people how to close off pain if they knew it could be done. People need to use that gray matter in their heads and they will find that it controls all of your life as long as you use it. After all if you think about it, that brain controls your eyes to see, your hands and legs to move. It is the main computer that runs your body as well as others that you come into contact with. Think about it and I mean that brain and then you will be able to see how much more you can do IF you want it done it can be done. IF you use that main computer in your head. All those that may read this besides you My Old Lady, may think about it and use that gray matter and learn so much that there going to be surprised as you will be. As for a real farmer? Ok, but your wrong and to the game and those that tell you I am wrong have no idea what there talking about as it takes people willing to join to expand. Not just the money. If I was there I would show you that those people are not being honest with you and why I have no idea. But, you have your own gray matter and you know me well enough to know I have never ever lied to you. But, just for your sake I will say I never picked out who I send away in that silly or stupid you prefer to use all the time. I took people that were not playing it or playing it with me. By that if I was never given anything back when I gave I dismissed them and added them back. Wait, they never came back unless they themselves came back. So, it was not my decision, but all the others including yourself if you ever came back. I use it for relaxation as it is a tool for a guy that gets paid to sit on his ass or sleep all day. But, social security as well as the pension is something that I as well as you worked for and not given to us! There’s a big difference. What I am saying explore yourself if able to get at the level as many people are at much higher levels than I am and those people pay real cash to get up that high. I refuse to pay for a game inside a game. After all that is really stupid and I am sure that many people will thin about that. Nope I made all my levels with no cash what so ever. I even have paid my Pogo yearly fee with NO CASH now for two-three years. Then ask those so called people that told you I am a liar. Wow, for someone that knows me so well, and I am not telling the truth. I suggest that you ask your friends that tell you these things about me, if I do pay for membership or not now for past year or so. If you really want to know who is telling the truth, the best thing is to ask that person that know what he does and why he does it. I gave you the answer, and it’s you that has to decide if I am as your girlie friends or guy friends say. After all as I said the truth is in front of you if you look at it! Well, I suppose I best take a nap as I have been poping my pills one at a time for each sentence and they seem to knock me out for awhile. But, learned to adjust to them and now see why people take them. What a waste of time doing it when you have no need to. Never took an aspirin all my life until ended up in the hospital and released with a few pills and told I had to take em the rest of my life or else. Well, I said no way and ended back in the hospital and given even more pills. Now, I take them and my brain seems to be back in it’s peek shape but had to use the pill’s my doctor gave me. Guess the cells of the brain just went bad as the doctor work probably say. A track on the hard drive is no good and not used any more so a pill moves to another lane and starts back as good as normal. Now if I could only replace the hard drive or in my case the brain then I would not have to use the pills. Get the idea now I bet. Have a great three may weekend. Hell it’s a weekend everyday for you and me. Let’s go to my secret spot or bargain hunting or just looking.(lewis1946@cox.net)
